Feeling complicated
I still suffer that I've slapped him n he hasn't completed that event
It was wrong but reasonable
He asks me to promise I'll never di that
That's reasonable but I can't make promises in that somehow
Because I still feel that my world is limited because of him partially
How can I make myself feel free?
How can I let go,?
I came here for him but unrewarded??
God
What is our answer?
Can we live together? Forever?
I sometimes feel Yes n sometimes no
I just feel scared of the pain if getting apart b feel lonely
How can we end n develop new friendships??
Hmmmm it takes time to understand my real feelings...(T_T)
いまの自分に学びをくれる人だけど 人生の方向性はやっぱり違うかもね
も時々思って
また話して、調整していける相手でもあると思い直して
みたいな螺旋かなぁ
Thanks
Good bye in my heart
からのハグ
How he feels is reasonable, I know
He said he believes me that I can promise that I'll never do that. I just need courage
Is the courage that I need is to make a promise??
Is it rather the courage to get apart from him ?
Neither is true??
What is peaceful idea for me ?
No rush, take time to be alone n find the answer...
I've made great effort to be together with him. That is really true. I've done well. I've done well enough not to hurt him any more...
He said I like you. It sounds paradoxical but human beings are full of paradox...
Take care take rest 🐢
I'm trying to just accept that I can fight my healing journey. I have to take it slow. Hurrying around only made it worse.
人といることと自分を生きることのバランス、編み物…
結婚はまだこわい
ただゆるく一緒にいたい
