Am I really being myself when I'm with him?
I don't like this pattern but after spending some time with other person I feel I'm like a bird in a cage 🦃
I need freeeeeeeeeeeedom
Eh Bhagwan mujhko freedom dijie....🙏
I came here mainly for him.
I don't like the current place. I feel choked.
It might be first time for me that I feel uncomfortable with the place I live...
Can't stop wailing crazily in the midnight
It's just so scary that I can't totally control my feelings and behaviour.
I really hate that what I hate about my mom is happening in me... Regretting the marriage, putting every reason to the failed marriage, which is not her decision.
Blaming others
Eventually controlling others by being collapsed
Let the loved one worry by the wailing
Totally crazy reproduction I do hate this
How other people would understand this disastrous phenomenon?
Am I dominated by something evil?? Do I need purification???
I feel that I can't talk (literary)
Have I lost my voice???
Both of the two points; one is that I don't feel comfortable living here...and the oyhevie somehow I've been selecting the choice which I instinctively knows that's not the right way (maybe rough detour) ... mentioned by the doctor is.... Actually Right.... ignoring my will?? Is it God's plan?? Where are you leading me??? What are you telling me ???