Living Diversity

マニラでのソーシャルワークとの出会い記録から、日本のソーシャルワーク×多文化/法的支援、インドで暮らし、働き、旅するカラフルさ、インド&野草ごはん、身体を解すこと、レジリエンス/回復についての試行錯誤を記録したく。 私もあなたも、ゆるく受けいれて生きていけるといいなと祈りながら。

シャーリー・マクレーンOut on a limbとpersonal relationship

シャーリー・マクレーンOut on a limb

 

ウポポイで出あった、
アイヌにルーツを持ちつつボリビア(&ペルー)に渡ったことのある方から、
すすめられて、気になっていた。


この作品に出遭って、かのじょは人生が、変わったらしい。


なにげに、実家の父親の本棚にこのタイトルのビデオがあったことを思い出して、
なんか不思議なご縁〜
と思ってみてみた。


父は口に出さんけど本棚に謎に呼吸法やらヨガやら前世やらの本があるんよね…

 

あらすじはこちらの方のブログがわかり易かったです↓
https://plaza.rakuten.co.jp/professor306/diary/201605030000/?scid=wi_blg_amp_diary_next

 

●印象に残ったセリフ
Dancer is a gypsy, moving around

Purpose to being alive???
Why are we here??

Why did you call me ?
You seem to be a happy person
Why did you accept?

Synchronicity…
Mysterious attraction...
→it was because she had met him in her ex-life...
Hmmm but eventually the love affair with this married guy didn't work !!!😆
So what is The meaning of this !?!?!?

What's really upsetting you ?
Exit ??

美しさを見る?貧しさを見る?
Both


起こったことみんなあるべきもの、とな。

I love me
I am God
I'm same as God…

 

Not any victims in this world
Everything has meanings

No one died

You are the light of the candle
Breathing is the life
Imagine the orange color Sun n feel warm☀
I like the way you use words

 

執着するのはlack of loveのとき

 

Something impatient to ppl....
あるある
”彼を失うわ”

So, it was to learn to accept the relationship which is not working????😑


本当の友達は君にとっての真実を認める
Cosmic Love affair...

 

「 人生において偶然は無い。もし人が心を開き、感情を素直に表し、あまり心配しなかったら、
他人に対してとてもよい影響を与えることができるんだよ 」

 

●英語なるほどなと思ったことば
😑😑😑偽善…hypocrisy
宇宙人…Extra Terrestrial
輪廻も化身もインカーネーションなんやな…ふしぎ。
幽体離脱…Astral projection, out-of-body experience

 

●reflecting my own life..
マヤンは宇宙人…
そうかも
私、好きになる人ときどき宇宙人…?!

理解したいのに理解しきれなくてモヤモヤするからかな。
Sometimes.  Unrewarding, or am i just expecting too much ???
Thought about Mu san, the Muslim guy with whom I'm having an interesting friendship.

I felt sad since he is not making the plan to meet up properly... Everytime I tried to suggest some dates to meet, he said "maybe "
Hmm when we finally met he explained that he was thinking to leave Japan to try to get the new working opportunity. I could understand the feeling. When the person is making an important decision, sometimes time to be alone, by ourselves is essential otherwise one can be too much emotional.


Hmm I felt happy to watch PK together.
He wanted me to stay overnight.
We avoided to Cross the last line, though went over the X... So you've already broke the rule😂😂😂 well, you Muslim can make amends later...

So,
What do I want?
What the God is expecting me to do ? Be ?
I can't feel respected, though it's fun to talk... Whenever I tried to convey important messages he ignores.

Friend with special warm feeling

respect
I respect you
I respect me
I respect how you respect me

I felt respected when I talked with him but .....but eventually not !?!?!?

Hmmm wrong number as PK said?
I'm loved
He was waiting
He bought me a cake
(Though it was not my favorite one 😂)
He shared his feelings and ideas
He accommodated me
He prepared futon for me while he slept on the sofa.
He wanted me.
(I kept being reasonable 😉)

It seems I need to know the way to receive your warm heart instead of feeling frustrated for being ignored when I mentioned something important for me to you 😑😭😂
Am I thinking too much!?!?
Just wanna enjoy every inch of the moment and receive abundance.
Detach....
God please guide me.🙏