Just Living Diversity

マニラでのソーシャルワークとの出会い記録から、日本のソーシャルワーク×多文化/法的支援、インドで暮らし、働き、旅するカラフルさ、インド&野草ごはん、身体を解すこと、レジリエンス/回復についての試行錯誤を記録したく。 私もあなたも、ゆるく受けいれて生きていけるといいなと祈りながら。

be happy be Shanti

This month last year was very tough for me.
Some articles was written even during that situation, which is somehow helping me now.

This week has been kind of busy.
I hate working overtime! That brings me the feeling of self hatrad.
I felt I should finish this perfectly.
oh I learnt that I don't need to push myself so hard, especially this time last year.
every feeling comes. lonely, desire for approval, self hatrad, low self-esteem, inferiority, impatience, fear for future job security, automatic mis recognition of being criticized etc. they are coming with some reason and they gonna go again.
God is always here with me.

Am I allowing others to love me ?
Am I loving myself ? Am I taking care of myself?
I have a crush, that is precious gift in my current life, while I feel several ppl have crushes on me (maybe..) I feel good, thankful abt it but at the same time feel annoyed... not exactly annoyed but kind of mendokusai, tiresome. Hmm I feel guilty for that tiresome feeling ...
This matter also I let every burden to God. will help me make satisfied. go slowly. taste it on the beautiful process.
:) be happy :).