Just Living Diversity

マニラでのソーシャルワークとの出会い記録から、日本のソーシャルワーク×多文化/法的支援、インドで暮らし、働き、旅するカラフルさ、インド&野草ごはん、身体を解すこと、レジリエンス/回復についての試行錯誤を記録したく。 私もあなたも、ゆるく受けいれて生きていけるといいなと祈りながら。

Ask God what is his plan,  what is my given role

Ask God what is his plan,  what is my given role

Sometimes I feel worry abt my future.
When my friend get certificate like social worker or something, or when my friend got a new job..
Comparing with others doesn't make sense, even I know that sometimes I do..

What kind of person I want to be?
What is my role in the Earth?
What was the meaning of my life so far ?
Being a bit hyperactive !? Go around the world,
Sensitive sometimes...
Hmmm wanna reflect.
Wanna know God's plan.

I did meditation today for an hour n felt fear for the future. Many anxiety came into my mind and LEFT.
I found my right cheek, right chest n heart center doesn't flow well so I focused on that part.

I confessed about the wrong things I did, my grudge, in the self-help meeting.
That was hard but I appreciate God to help me say it out and also myself that I could say it out ! Well done. Thank you. It was an important progress to be a better person.

I met a friend of mine whom I met in Tunisia after 11yrs absence.
She became a yoga teacher, traveling around South East Asia especially Malaysia ( she was born in America n her ancestors were from Hong Kong) I felt nice that she does not cling on HK/America, kind of her root.
She took yoga instructor course in Sri Lanka. it was because she loved the place. Very simple! Before she was working in marketing industry but now she focus on yoga. Because she loves yoga & adventure & retreats.
She creates yoga sessions n retreats wherever she goes.
Wow. That kind of life style is possible!!!

I can't know what will happen in the future.
Though I want to know the direction to feel safe ...
I could not see my future when I burnt out in Delhi. But I'm still alive. I'm living life with emotional growth. I wanna be better spiritually.

God, what is my role?
To deliver Shanti happy life to those who are in suffer?
Yoga, meditation, reflexology, food, cooking...
Will be in multiple places?
Maybe I'm but tired today. I did enough for today.
He will guide me. He is guiding me.
Take rest.