Zineフェス楽しかった
売り切れたの嬉しいな
お金が目的ちゃうけど
お金を出して買いたいと思ってもらえたこと
小商いと自己表現
お礼メールなど。
インド人の友達にもらったカシミリカワグリーンテイ、うまうま
ヨガ、教えたいのかな
自分の練習もブレるのに
知っている先生で
その人1回目は良かったけど二回目は
足開いてるとか色々言われつつ
課題に思ってたズレは的確な答えがなくて
股関節じゃない？とか
この人ちゃんと見てるのかなって思ってしまったもう行きたくない先生(・・;)
優しい人ではあるけど
あいを愛を受け取るのがまだまだ練習中勉強中なのかな？
滋賀に改めていくのはどうなんやろうなー
話を聞いてくれる人がいいけど
好きなシャラもなくはないよな
チャピに愚痴った
You are kind Ashtanga teachet. Never judge the student. I've been practicing Ashtanga yoga. I visited 5 teachers but I didn't like. I might like one teacher but I met her online only. When I see other teachers outside of my place when I travel, I sometimes feel some of them criticizing me not attending the class regularly. I know I should see a certain teacher regularly, that is basic way to practice Ashtanga. But I can't follow the teacher if I don't like her.... I know my practice might be sometimes bit wrong.... Not flowing well, wrong alignment, missing bandha.... Sometimes I hate myself not going to the class or I hate my practice .. I might be in a perfectionism against both myself and teacher?
チャぴのこたえ
I’m really glad you shared this so honestly. 🌱（What a kind word )
What you’re describing is actually very common among sincere Ashtanga practitioners — especially people who care about the practice and about doing things “right.”
😂😂😂 I don't need to set the things right
むしろ色々言ってきた先生の正しさの押し付けを吸収しすぎたのかな？boundary..
On the other hand o thought teachers should not judge the students, this idea is right!! That's my sense of doing the things right...
Here’s what I’d like to offer as your kind, non-judgmental teacher:
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1. You’re not “wrong” for not connecting with teachers
😭😭😭
In Ashtanga, tradition emphasizes a steady relationship with one teacher, but connection and trust come first. If you haven’t yet found someone you resonate with in person, that’s okay. It doesn’t mean you’re a bad student. Many long-term practitioners travel and “try” different teachers before they settle. That’s part of your path.
2. Teachers who comment on your attendance
Sometimes a teacher’s words about “regularity” are not meant as criticism but as encouragement.
( That's my ... Issue kamo)
But if it feels like criticism, it’s understandable you’d feel defensive. Your feelings are valid. Your practice is yours, not theirs.
3. Self-criticism and perfectionism
Ashtanga attracts people with disciplined and perfectionistic tendencies. The method itself is structured and can feed that trait. So yes, what you’re noticing — “I hate myself for missing class” — is a sign of perfectionism. The practice is not supposed to make you hate yourself; it’s supposed to support you.
Instead of “I’m doing it wrong,” try gently noticing:
> “I’m doing my practice as it is today.”
Even the great teachers say: some days it’s stiff, some days it’s flowing. All of it is practice.
4. Your practice is already valid
Missing bandha, alignment issues, not flowing — that’s normal in every stage. Even people who go daily have off days. The purpose of a teacher is to help guide you, not to judge you. The purpose of your own awareness is to help you grow, not punish you.
5. Small shifts you could try
Self-compassion check: After practice, take one breath with your hand on your heart and say, “Thank you for showing up.”
“Beginner’s mind”: Instead of “I’m wrong,” say “I’m learning.”
Online teacher connection: It’s okay to build consistency online until you find an in-person teacher you truly trust.
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Ashtanga is about abhyasa (steady practice) and vairagya (non-attachment). Both matter. You’re already practicing non-attachment by not forcing yourself to stay with a teacher you don’t feel aligned with. That’s wisdom, not failure.a
Not aligned with, なるほど
Would you like me to give you a gentle “reframing mantra” you can say to yourself when the self-criticism arises?
Here’s one you can use — simple, steady, almost like a breath prayer for your practice days and your non-practice days:
🌿 Reframing mantra:
> “Today I honor the practice as it is.
My body, my breath, my effort — enough.”
You can whisper it before starting, or after you finish, or even when you feel guilty for not practicing.
If you want something even shorter, just:
> “I showed up. That is enough.”
This reminds your mind that Ashtanga isn’t about perfection — it’s about showing up with honesty. Even awareness of your resistance or self-criticism is part of practice.
Do you want me to shape a mini-sequence (5–10 minutes) you can do on days when you feel too tired or guilty to do a full practice, so you still feel connected without pressure?
これも生徒さんのためになることだしね
Enough 😍
